My friend Natalie introduced me to my
first “giving key” but
only because I saw a key around her neck with the word “believe”
engraved on
it. I got home and I googled it because I liked it and that’s where the
love affair began. These are re purposed keys that have a word engraved on them.. everything from Believe, Inspire, Create, Love, Hope, Faith, Breathe, Dream, Courage, Strength, Brave.. you get the idea. You wear the key until you either are done with your word or you feel that someone else needs your word more than you do. Cool, right?
I had recently gone to a women’s conference in Dallas with a friend of mine and I had heard a speaker talk about having a “word of the year” that you focus on. I had decided that my word was either faith or surrender. Due to lots of circumstances and a year of personal growth, I had been praying on if faith led to surrender or surrender was the ultimate display of faith but when I saw that one of the keys already had faith engraved on it, I had my word.
I had recently gone to a women’s conference in Dallas with a friend of mine and I had heard a speaker talk about having a “word of the year” that you focus on. I had decided that my word was either faith or surrender. Due to lots of circumstances and a year of personal growth, I had been praying on if faith led to surrender or surrender was the ultimate display of faith but when I saw that one of the keys already had faith engraved on it, I had my word.
I went on a little buying spree, inspired to carry it
forward to just a few of these amazing women that have changed my life in so many ways.
I could go on and on about the women and the keys that have spoken to me for
them but that may be a tale for another time. Suffice it to say that I have bought 11 keys
so far and seeing the way that it’s working will probably push me to buy even
more. However, this is a story about my
very special key.
I lost my big sister to alcoholism six years ago. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t
think of her and miss her. 13 years ago,
I saw her stunningly beautiful daughter born.
This child, my goddaughter was born with a heart as big and unique as
her mama’s and instantly knew she was destined to do great things. Unfortunately, I’ve had to watch her grow
into this lovely creature from a distance as she lives with her amazing dad and
step mom in Maryland and I live in Texas.
We are lucky enough to get to spend time with her every summer though
and we treasure that time we get to spend with her.
Last Thursday, I got to go have dinner with
her all by myself which is a rarity when there are so many that want to spend time
with her. It was such a special time
with just us and I got a chance to listen to her and get to know her, be in her presence and feel her heart. We got to talking about
names for her future children (which is something her mama used to do), and she
told me her daughter’s name would be Michelle Marie after both of her mom’s
middle names. This touched me and I told
her so… and all of a sudden her eyes
welled up with tears and it hit me. I
looked at her and said… “you don’t
remember her, do you?” She nodded
through tear filled eyes and said no. I
quickly went over to her side of the booth, hugged her and asked if she felt
guilty about that and she nodded again.
By this time, we were both crying and I reassured her that there was
nothing to feel guilty about. It has
been six years and she was only seven at the time. She remembers some things but not her smell
or the way she sounded. She remembered
stories but didn’t remember what her arms felt like.
After thinking about it some more, crying about it some more
and praying on it. I realized that I need to help her remember the amazing woman her mother was. Help her know that her mom always said that
she was the best thing that she had ever done.
I am the closest thing to my sister and it’s my honor
to help her know the mama who loved her so much. I went to bed with this new resolve on my
mind and in my heart.
I
woke up the next day and went about my morning… starting with an early
workout, back home, shower, hair and was putting on my makeup. All of a sudden, I heard in my head that I
needed to give my "faith" key to Emilie. I
always knew that I would pay it forward, but I honestly didn’t expect it to be
so soon after I got my first key.
Honestly, I was a bit bratty when I realized this and tried to bargain
that I’d buy her a new faith key. I
wasn’t ready to give up my faith key. I
still needed faith. Then I heard in my
head again… no! You need to give Emilie YOUR faith key.
My eyes welled up with tears and I fell to my knees sobbing. I always listen to Pandora while getting
ready and all of a sudden, “I Can Only Imagine” by Mercy Me came on. This was Kristin’s favorite song and I knew
without a shadow of a doubt that I had to do what I was instructed to do. What is even stranger is that it played a
second time on Pandora as if to bring the point home. Not only God, but my sister too was telling
me to take care of her baby girl.
Emilie was leaving to go back home that afternoon… so I took the opportunity to tell her this story. I took her hands in mine, looked into her eyes and I paid forward my
faith key. I told her that whenever she
needed to feel her mom to hold that key, feel its strength, rub its word and
know without a shadow of a doubt that she is loved immeasurably and that her
mom is always near. I also told her that
she had to pay it forward when the time was right and she felt so led.
Finally, I was telling my first giving key recipient of this
story and she texted me an hour later and said that “brave” was on its way to
me. That by sending it to me, she was
brave. By giving Emilie faith, I had
faith.
I love these keys for so many reasons. They almost always start a conversation which then goes into paying it forward, which is always good. In addition, they are always given with love and for a very specific reason. These keys make a difference and I am so grateful for the gift it enabled me to share with my precious niece and goddaughter.
I love these keys for so many reasons. They almost always start a conversation which then goes into paying it forward, which is always good. In addition, they are always given with love and for a very specific reason. These keys make a difference and I am so grateful for the gift it enabled me to share with my precious niece and goddaughter.