Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Keeping up with the pregnancy: 30 weeks

Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 30 Weeks
Size of baby: Jocelyn is the size of an pumpkin  
Total Weight Gain/Loss: not talking about it anymore.....
Maternity Clothes: yep.  Would love to find some cute dresses though. 
Gender: It's a girl!!! Jocelyn Anne
Movement: She is VERY active and especially loves milkshakes .
Sleep: ok... between the getting up to go to the bathroom and sleep training with the 3 year old.   
What I miss:  being able to walk up the stairs without becoming winded... being able to exercise in the morning and not hurt at night.  
Cravings: FRUIT and milkshakes. 
Symptoms: a LOT of braxton hicks lately.
Best Moment this week:  sitting in the crystal clear water of Harbour Island.  



Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Dear Jocelyn, (some ramblings)

I heard a song on my way into work today and then heard it three more times (gotta love Radio)..  and it's Pink's song "Less than Perfect"...  really it's got a different title but I won't put that in a letter to you.  :) 

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me! 

It just got me to thinking about how much you are going to have to battle throughout your journey to adulthood and beyond.  As a mother, you want to shield your children from EVERY pain imaginable but... I also know that each of those bumps and bruises along the way...  they will make you who you are.  The good.  The bad and the ugly.  :)  But, through it all.  I promise that you are perfect to me.  

I am 29 weeks today.  I am feeling you push and shove your way around my insides (I know, it feels as strange as it sounds)...  and I already know that you're going to be a headstrong one.  One with your own opinions and your own mark to leave on the world.  I can only hypothesize on the way shape and form of how it all will unfold.  But right now...  right now, you are safe.  You are shielded from the outside world and all that it entails. 

However, God has already written your story.  I just have to have faith in his writing and know that you are in good hands.  He gave you to me, after-all.  He is trusting me (us) with you.  He is trusting us with your future.  What an amazing blessing. 

I got to thinking...  that along with your brother, you are mine.  Mine and your daddy's.  But, right now...  right this very second.  YOU are mine.  With what I eat and drink, I nourish you and make your bones strong.  I have made your fingers and your toes.  I have made your beautiful eyes and fashioned those eyelashes that are going to make some man (or woman) swoon.    Your body...  your tiny little body...  piece by piece... I am creating it.  What a miracle.  And to me...  you are, and always will be, perfect. 

I love you baby girl!  11 more weeks til I get to kiss on your toes and nuzzle your neck.  And I can't wait.  (well I can, because I want you to continue to grow big and strong...  but, I loved you before you were even a thought)
Mama

Keeping up with the Pregnancy: 29 weeks

Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 29 Weeks
Size of baby: Jocelyn is the size of an butternut squash.  
Total Weight Gain/Loss: not talking about it anymore.....
Maternity Clothes: yep.  Would love to find some cute dresses though. 
Gender: It's a girl!!! Jocelyn Anne
Movement: She is VERY active and especially loves milkshakes .
Sleep: using my pillow...  it's ok.   
What I miss:  being able to walk up the stairs without becoming winded... being able to exercise in the morning and not hurt at night.  Still doing it though. 
Cravings: fruit and milkshakes. 
Symptoms: a LOT of braxton hicks lately.  my back is hurting, especially lower. 
  Best Moment this week:  scheduling a 3D ultrasound for the beginning of next week.  Oh and the amazing edible arrangement of fruit that Danielle and Todd got us!  OMG is that yummy!  :)  

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

RIP Rocky-San

Rocky is the kind of dog that if he were human you would want to be around him.  He had a zest for life...  and he was just so stinkin cute with his flying nun ears.  He started out living with my sister and her ex husband but eventually went to live at the warehouse with Mom and dad at work.  But we have many funny Rocky stories.  He is a BIG dog that always thought he was a poodle.. a mini poodle.  He had such a sweet heart.  All he wanted was to be carried... all 65 pounds of him.  :) 

I was first off of ships and would go over to Kristin's house and pick Rocky up and take him to the park over on TC Jester in Houston.  He would often walk me but we came to an agreement after awhile.

One day the park was deserted (or so I thought) except for one man and his boxer.  The two wanted to play so badly...  and Rocky had been going to obedience training ...  so the other owner and I took both dogs off leash and let them play.  They were having a grand old time until this man came around the corner and started yelling at us to get our dogs on leash... with arms raised in the air in a very threatening stance.  Well...  Rocky took great offense at this.  He was really doing what a dog is supposed to do and protected me but he started barking at this man...  who only made it worse at this point.  I was getting his attention and turned back around an the man had quite literally climbed the tree which only made things worse.

I did get rocky back on leash and we left but I'm sure it's a moment this man won't soon forget either.  I do recognize that I was at fault for taking my dog off leash.  but...  if you could have seen his face... 

Part of what made Rocky so cute were his ears.  I know that a lot of people aren't fans of the non docked ears but there is really no medical reason to do it, it hurts the dog and part of what made Rocky's personality that much cuter was the floppy ears.

He also had this mournful "roo".  As long as you were petting him and scratching his hind quarters or giving him a treat he was great.  But as soon as you went back into the office you would hear this loud and heart wrenching ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... just letting you know that you were loved and if you were so inclined, he would like a bit more attention.  :-)

Tonight Rocky was struggling to breathe and dad took him to the vet.  Turns out it's cancer and it has metastasized to his lungs, making it near impossible for him to breathe.  Dad made the ever difficult decision to put Rocky to sleep and take away his pain.  Rocky will forever live in our hearts...  but that office will never be the same without him or his roo.  :-(

Rest in Peace Rocky!  You were loved.

Treat me kindly, my beloved master, for no heart in all the world is more grateful for kindness than the loving heart of me. 

Do not break my spirit with a stick, for though I should lick your hand between the blows, your patience and understanding will more quickly teach me the things you would have me do. 

Speak to me often, for your voice is the world's sweetest music, as you must know by the fierce wagging of my tail when your footstep falls upon my waiting ear. 

When it is cold and wet, please take me inside... for I am now a domesticated animal, no longer used to bitter elements... and I ask no greater glory than the privilege of sitting at your feet beside the hearth... though had you no home, I would rather follow you through ice and snow than rest upon the softest pillow in the warmest home in all the land... for you are my god... and I am your devoted worshiper. 

Keep my pan filled with fresh water, for although I should not reproach you were it dry, I cannot tell you when I suffer thirst. 

Feed me clean food, that I may stay well, to romp and play and do your bidding, to walk by your side, and stand ready, willing and able to protect you with my life, should your life be in danger. 

And, beloved master, should the Great Master see fit to deprive me of my health or sight, do not turn me away from you. 

Rather hold me gently in your arms as skilled hands grant me the merciful boon of eternal rest...and I will leave you knowing with the last breath I drew, my fate was ever safest in your hands.
--Beth Norman Harris

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Keeping up with the Pregnancy: 27 weeks

Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 27 Weeks
Size of baby: Jocelyn is the size of an eggplant.  
Total Weight Gain/Loss: around 14 lbs
Maternity Clothes: I wear maternity jeans and pants but most everything else is regular. 
Gender: It's a girl!!! Jocelyn Anne
Movement: She is VERY active .
Sleep: Other than getting up with Joe Joe...  not too bad. 
What I miss:  being able to walk up the stairs without becoming winded... I can run a mile but not walk up the stairs.  Maybe putting on my shoes or seeing my feet?  ha!
Cravings: fruit and other sweet things. 
Symptoms: Mostly tiredness, a few Braxton Hicks here and there 
Best Moment this week:  Having a doctor appt...  and hearing the heartbeat.  She looks good, is measuring good and the doctor was happy with everything.  :)  

I don't have a picture yet...  but will get one.  :)


oh yeah and GO STEELERS!