Observant

I guess you become much more observant when you are going through something in your life. When you are getting married it seems that everyone is getting married.

When you are pregnant.... Every tom dick and harry (thomasina, joanna and harriet as it may be) is pregnant with you.

So I guess it stands to reason that you feel another parents pain even more poignantly when you have a child or have lost a child.

Thank the good Lord, I have not experienced this loss but I feel (in my heart and bones) the pain these parents are experiencing when losing or fighting for their child's life!

Tonight, as I snuggled with Joseph, putting him down for the night hours... I started whispering to him.

Two years ago, I was still ten days from meeting you. You were gaining all that necessary fat you'd need on the *outside*.

But your ten perfect fingers were formed. (who knows what you will touch).
Your hands (what will they do) were in place.
Those gorgeous arms (the right size for hugging), perfect legs and extremely capable feet (which will walk millions of steps) were there.
Your perfect skin covering all those bits and bobs... and ears for listening.
Those eyes which will see unimaginable beauty and indescribable pain.
And your heart which makes you YOU was beat beat beating!
All of it there... and in exactly the place it needed to be.
All of that, in and of itself, is awe inspiring. *I* created a human!

And Gods plan was already in place for you. He knew/knows everything you will face and everything you will accomplish.

You... (and all other children) are ...HOPE!

Psalm 139:14 reads; "I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are your works, and my soul knows very well."

Which is just WOW. I know that probably feels like a heavy weight to shoulder. But I believe in you.... As my parents believed in me. But you are fearfully and wonderfully made, my little love.

And I can't even believe it.... But I love you even more than I did two years ago.